May 22, 2009

I turn my head and go away.....




"The phoenix hope, can wing her way through the desert skies, and still defying fortune's spite; revive from ashes and rise.”

Miguel Cervantes

And thats why I got a tattoo of a phoenix when I did get one. There is so much I wanna say and so much of this has been left unsaid.I wish I could write exactly what I feel. I wish I could produce the riders just as they are on paper, the loopholes, the jagged edges that need to be evened out. But this is a blog at the end of the day and not my personal diary where I could possibly put my heart out. I wanna tell him that I could have been as good as you wanted me to be with time. I know I could have but life and circumstances had made up their mind way before. I had wanted so much and I got so little. I hate such unfinished chapters and parting in such a hurry. But we'll meet again and it'll be a different day.
This post is also for someone else whose having to quit a job she loves for the most uncomfortable of reasons. You remember the day you took this picture of my tattoo. We were so excited about meeting up on the pretext of your work in Bangalore. We liked the way life was shaping out however bumpy the road seemed to be. We never thought that this is how the journey would end. You do know that you and I will find our own little niche someday. We'll be happy, doing what we love and without compromising on your dignity and my self confidence.

7 comments:

Pete said...

I hope tomorrow can be better for you.

Pete

Jinxed Pixie said...

"I wish I could produce the riders just as they are on paper, the loopholes, the jagged edges that need to be evened out."

I love this line!

I love this post!

SMM said...

This is such a heartfelt post girl...best of luck for the next round. Those fuckers don't deserve you

Swayam said...

there is so much in life we want.. and there's so lil we get at the end of the day... but I guess to make do with whatever we get is what life is all about...

Aw.S.M said...

Yaar i can see that the post is completely heartfelt but a question..y would u wanna be something u r not for some1 who cant take u for what u r?..

Food for thought :)

luv
amith

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