Dec 15, 2008

And we hit rick bottom the harder we try. All the happiness is sucked out. We cry and cry and cry. We haven't cried this much for years now. Friends have come and gone, fights and misunderstandings flit pass by, we have lost files and found them too, fallen in love and fallen out of it, shifted cities, jobs, lives and not once but time and time again, lost faith and found it back almost miraculously and more than anything we have lived through it all. Then why does this feel like the end of the world?I wanna be happy. I wanna get up each morning knowing that it is gonna be a good day and that I won't question my abilities some million times a day. I seem to be loosing belief in my own abilities and today I even asked my Mum if I was that bad a lawyer. I hateeeeee that, hate it from the deepest core of my heart. So i take a pledge that hell I am gonna make it, come anything. I am gonna play by your rules and be bloody good at it. I might stumble and fall but I am gonna get up again and try once more till I master it and I promise this to myself. I am not gonna be this crying, wimpering wuss whose eyes get filled up with tears at one harsh word. Times will change and someday we shall look back and laugh at this day and know that yes we made it through this and we can make it through anything.

6 comments:

Rambler said...

sometimes we kinda loose confidence..but you know with determination like this..we can achieve whatever we want to..glad to see that determination in the post

Swayam said...

hmmmm.. i guess things do always change for the better... well i've been wishing for the same since long... lost so many friends along the way.. and found so many new.. who I'd never want to loose... And yaa since i 've stil not entered the professional sphere... my marks still continue to bog me down... and the whole futility of screwing my ass over a farzi degree...

SMM said...

Hey girl...chin up. Tried calling ya last night but network problem. Things will get better soon . And smile :)

Keshi said...

Never give up cos for every flower that fades, a new one blooms.

HUGS! stay focused like u always do.

Keshi.

Viks said...

I believe that we make our own world and if we try to be happy and have a smile on our face always, then it will only generate positive vibes.

When you are surrounded with positivity, then only good things are going to happen. There is no room for something negative to creep in.

Having a strong will and keeping a motivational attitude always benefits a person. I think you just need to keep telling yourself that 'only good will happen to me' - and so will it.

I wise man once told me that 'there are no obstacles in life, we just create them in our mind' - so make sure you destroy all the ones that you've created.

Good will happen to you!

harshabadbad said...

just hang on mate and let it pass. Sometimes its better to flow with the tide and not intercept it