Apr 5, 2009

With A Little Bit Of Help From My Woodwork Angels

I got up in the evening with the most rotten mood after my afternoon nap. I was angry with the world for a variety of reasons and primarily cos our prayers don’t seem to be working, cos my Dad needed an oxygen mask last nite, cos maybe I finally found something I can grow to love, be good at with time and I’ll have to take a break from because of circumstances. I have lived the last 8 years of my life skimming over everything, be it law school where I took it easy for almost all of the five years or my two years in Delhi whereby all I did was to have fun, drink too much( much too much for my own good), party, chill out with my friends and not give my best at work. I haven’t been true to the substantial things, the priorities for so long that it became a way of life for me. Somewhere deep down I always knew that I cannot continue in this fashion and hence the move out of Delhi. I wanted to be the best I could be and I know that I had fooled myself for too long. Nothing in life is free and yes all the fun has come at a cost and I am having to pay for every second of not making an effort at work before and I have struggled and continue to struggle here in this law firm but amidst this constant maze of questions I am getting answers. I have questioned myself every single day at work over here for the last 6 months wondering darn am I ever gonna be standing anywhere amidst people who are so good at what they do and know so much more than I ever have. The only thing I had going for me was the fact that I wanted to do well and I was sick of being a nobody, despised myself for having let myself become a shadow of what I could have been. But if you want something that badly and go for it even if you stumble every step of the way, make an utter fool of yourself in the process but you still get up, laugh and carry on cos this is gonna be one long journey and you just started, a tad bit too late maybe but tis never too late to go after your dreams and dreams change.
So there I was a couple of hours back fuming, snapping at my sister, furious after a phone conversation with my mother who insisted I was lazy and I should be able to cook instead of making do with take aways and instant food all the time. I walked out of the house to get milk for the coffee my roomie Richa was making for us and ended up buying eggs, onion, garlic, tomatoes and some potatoes thinking maybe I should try my hand at cooking and I can’t be that bad as they think I am or as I think I am. I come back home with the supplies and Richa goes “Wow you gonna be cooking.” I said sheepishly “Yes I am. Hope it doesn’t turn out to be bad, hope its edible.” I started with the chopping, cutting and boiling of the ingredients and doing just that exhausted me but not to be discouraged I carried on. In the middle when the mixie wasn’t working and I couldn’t figure how to make the onion, garlic, tomatoe paste I almost gave up looking at the mess the kitchen was. Whatever task I do and if it is a hard one there is always this one moment when everything seems to be falling apart and I think hell this isn’t gonna work out. But with time I have realized if I stick around and persist that moment passes and I do complete what I started out doing not in the spectacular fashion like in the movies but not half as bad either. I did finish making the egg curry and rice with a little bit of help from Richa and useful tips from Sags and my Mum. In the process while she fried the masala for me and I ground the ginger we exchanged stories about her Grandmum, my Dad, our families and I came to the conclusion that no I do wanna be there for my Mum and Dad now and if I don’t take that break now I’ll have life long regrets. The Egg Curry smelt yum, tasted fine and they liked it and there is a little bit left that I have to put back in the refrigerator. I wish I’d tried cooking before, I wish I hadn’t had preconceived notions about what I am good at and can be good at. But I am learning now that I can be good at what I truly want with a little bit of help from my woodwork angels be at Meggy at work or Richa at home with the cooking. Woodwork angels are those who materialize out of nowhere, almost the woodwork when you need someone the most. Thus Meggy has been mine at work for 6 months now and Richa was one today in the kitchen. :-)


SMM said...

Oh babe...coking isisn't that tough really. I learnt it too. remember how I'd crib about it initially :)

But yeah there are angels all around. Some are temporary and some are there forever. They'r called friends :)

Swayam said...

that was actually extremely encouraging... I sometimes feeel so down and under... feel like a nobody.. i forget my strengths.. give up on my dreams... but having read your post I'll surely be back with life... Have a lil test of grammar at coaching today.. hoping to do well... atleast it'd be a beginning...:)
do keep writing... I love this blog ohh so completely...

akanksha said...
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akanksha said...

That was quite an honest post! It takes guts to write a post like this and I m glad u did.I m soooo proud of you.

Get Well Wishes for your dad, Hope he is feeling better now.

Cooking isn't all that tough, U just need to try your hand at it once, and from the next time onwards,it comes naturally!

And hope u're out of the blues and feeling better now!

J said...

So I learn a new word. Woodwork angels. Hmm.. that's what you call them huh.

I suppose i'm glad for having many of them.

Keshi said...

I love the term Woodwork Angels :)

Get well dad!

Cooking was quite a challenge for me when I first ventured in to it. But now its so v easy and altho Im not as good as my mum is, Im glad alot of ppl enjoy my food. Like with with everything else, practice is what u need. All the best!


Arjun said...

Hey Uto!!
your dad will get well soon....be strong..

... and yeah... cookin can be a lot of fun

Jinu P said...


twinie feeling ok now? yes, u should take that break and be with parents. A few years later you will realize that was one of the few things worthwhile that u did. I did that and so I am telling you this.

will write to you/ping you today. dropped my cel fone from the moving train.. beat that!

rahul said...

nice blog..my best wishes for your Dad!!

Keshi said...

hang on, didnt u hv a different pic b4? :)


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