Mar 17, 2009

And someday I'll chase them again.....


Yeah I have been away for a while but I guess its expected considering the fact that we lead the lives we lead.This one week will see me traverse 3 cities (Delhi, Bangalore, Kolkata) and 2 small towns (Haridwar and Dehradun). I have loads and loads of memories atatched to Dehradun as I spent a part of my childhood there. I was 4 then I think as we use to live right next to Doon School. I had the most ridiculous haircut which in the mid 80's use to be known as the "katori cut" as in literally meaning that your hair would be cut in the shape of a round bowl. I looked like quite the clown and to top it all there was some serial killer on the prowl in Dehradun in those days and he had a taste for little girls so I had been strictly intructed by my folks especially my Dad that if anybody asks my name I am to say my name was Pappu. Well I took to the game like a fish in water and very soon started acting my part so well that I would not respond to my real name except for Pappu and I had convinced myself in my head that I was a little boy until my Mum whacked me one day reminding me who I actually was and what my real name was hahahha!
I know I shouldn't be writing such inane anecdotes but I don't seem to want to write anything else. Someone told me the other day that I have to be strong and a little indifferent to whats happening around me or else even when this time passes and life changes I'll be stuck in this time capsule having lost the real me forever. Sometimes I feel maybe I'll never be able to have a fun time without worrying or feeling guilty that I shouldn't. Life surely has the strangest ways of teaching us lessons I say. I know I have to be making plans very soon but selfish that I am something which bothers me a lot is taking this break from my job and I'll be missing out on work and a learning for sometime. But times change, atleast I hope they do and my dreams will remain with me intact and hopefully someday I'll chase them again. Till then I'll do my duty cos this is the least I can do and I owe them this much and so much more.

5 comments:

SMM said...

Well this sounds serious girl...you take care and bestaluck. They'r going to be looking at you to be strong so you have to be strong for them.Your the big one now.

(¯`•._.•[Raaji]•._.•´¯) said...

i like your closing statements. that is the spirit :-)

Jinu P said...

:) huugs

The Dude said...

such inanity is what we all need more off, people take themselves and life too seriously i.m.h.o...

I like Dehradun, havent spent much time there in many years, but it and mussoorie (specifically landour) hold a special place for me as a child.

and as far as taking a break from work goes, well sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do. never regret it.

cheers..

J said...

3 cities and 2 towns in a week sounds cool. That should be rejuvenating enough.