Nov 26, 2007

I only have 5 minutes


Well well well I am supposed to be jotting down 5 minutes of my random thoughts and here I go. I can here the irritating ghati man from the accounts section screaming something about contracts and I hear the word "contracts" once again I swear I am gonna chuck my big black notebook on him. I am bloody bloody thirsty and dehydrated. Yeah I over did it last night. I was 11 down when I finally went home. We had an excessively emotional drinking session. Darn both of us cried, laughed, bitched to our heart's content heheeh! Oh my god I just remembered that drive we went for on the Greater Noida toll road and the blast of the icy wind on my face and the fog. It was bloody scary. I wonder how Rad drove the car through the dense fog and yeah I think she played "Dream On" to get some life into me who was on the throes of passing out. I got up this morning and as usal I did not feel like coming for work. But then I knew I'd would feel awful later if I wasted the day so here I am and its only 2.30 PM in the afternoon. Oh call me silly but I was checking out S and his girl's picture on facebook and dude I felt sooooooooooo miserable. All it takes is a glimpse of that picture and I can feel the prick of tears in my eyes. Enough of the sentimental me. Libby is having her first chemotherapy session today. I pray it goes fine. Love yaaaa woman. S came home the other day.He wanted to spend time with Libby before she left and she was so touched. Everytime I tell her "Darn he doesn't care, " She'd be like "Please he would never bother about me if you did not mean something to him." I've been reading "Istanbul" by orhan Pahmuk and it is beautiful. A little slow maybe but I love the descriptions of the various lanes and bylanes of the city, the little pictures he paints of his childhood and growing up years and the underlying sense of melancholy that has permeated that decadent city. Okie people I am done. I just realised that 5 mintues of randomness doesn't paint a pretty picture of me heheh!I sound like some drunkie, who is the founder member of the sop brigade and who cannot stop but mention S in every post. No more.

13 comments:

anuj said...

Half way down the post I was like .. love again .. n she says to get it off the mind .. the more u think the more it teases .. bt thn its fair I guess .. if it weren't for the self-healing drinking times .. whnelse wud it be ..

final dayz of college .. nd its all fags, drinks n frndz .. developing a taste fr alcohol, quite diff frm jus gulping it dwn initially .. developing a taste for good talks .. nice talks .. quite diff frm the useless rantings earlier ..

so I guess .. with time .. may be .. may be.. things can get better .. ;)

cheers

J said...

I can quite relate to some parts mentioned here..

5 minutes sure got interesting.

Cheers!!

Renovatio said...

Na, it paints a very pretty picture. Unfortunately that picture's still in black and white, and in this case, it needs some color. We just need to find that color :D

Shine on said...

Tough times for you and your friend, hope you all pull through. Good wishes coming from miles away :)

..also after the checking facebook phase you might go through the 'dont get mad get even phase' of that happens contact me. :)

Pri said...
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Pri said...

its a tough phase girl...
but dont worry...its jus a phase and itll pass...
u just gotta stay strong...
as for S, i dont know if i shud be sayin this (because i dont really know the story) but believe me...have been through it all..things wch leave u feelin he still cares and stuff...
dont want to put it harshly,but some people just play it well...leaving others vulnerable for life and hating urself...to a point u (and people around u)even start feeling sorry for them...
dont fall for it...i know it hurts...but the truth is they jus want to be in ur good books all the time while u stay as a medal in their records...
my apologies if this sounds blunt...

(¯`•._.•[Raaji]•._.•´¯) said...

no matter how you put it... i like free write ups :)

The Rebel said...

Tough phase, shall pass soon!!!

An ILLuS|On said...

I feel like tagging you yet again for yet another FMORT post:P
Have faith & be strong..this tough time would pass away soon:)

Evil Spock said...

Ah, Evil Spock has finally put the binge drinking behind Evil Spock. 11 drinks is a bit excessive, yes?

utopia said...

oh my god guess whose back! evil spock!!!!!!!! where have thou been? long long time! :) and nooooo that was just a one off incident. been really trying to cut down on my drinking.

Sam said...

11 drinks??? of what???
and den stay strong.. prolly someone gains strength from u...
god bless!!

bluebutterfly said...

11 drinks .... wow .... great going ... !!!
my get well soon wishes to libby
and as for S i dont know the story .... but with the pictures i think its time to move on